I grew-up in a Christian family and my parents worshipped God deeply. They were heavily involved in the christian community, so as a child it was natural to me that God exists. As I grew-up and learned about science and seemingly different theories of creation, I began to ask myself: Is God real? As one cannot see and touch him, it gets sometimes difficult to believe. Through my research and experience, I found the following:

First of all, we all believe in a lot without seeing it. For example, have you ever seen or touched a new idea? Certainly not. And yet it was there. Maybe you believed in it or even dared to realized it? Have you ever immersed yourself in a great novel or thrilling thriller? I sometimes get to the point where I cannot stop reading and were I am completely spellbound with excitement. I actually see nothing but letters that are strung together. And yet, there was more. Have you ever had tears in your eyes when listening to a beautiful song? You didn’t see anything and only heard invisible sounds – or was there more?

The Bible says: “God is spirit and all who worship him must worship in spirit and truth.” (John 4:24) I think this is not to be understood as “poltergeist” but in the sense of spiritual as well mental energy.

But why doesn’t God and Jesus show us themselves in their physical form in the here and now? If Jesus was standing next to you now and saying something to you, you would have to believe, right? Or would you think you’re dreaming? If God were to be seen up in the sky for all people on earth, then everyone would immediately believe, right? There would be no more doubts – or would everyone doubt whether someone had fooled them with a projection?

Actually, in Fatima, Portugal, there was a light phenomenon that 30-40,000 people were watching at the same time. The virgin Mary appeared to small children and announced the light phenomenon. The special light came exactly on the day and time when the crowd was waiting. This was so extraordinary for those who were there, that many started to deepen their belief. Media representatives that previously reported mockingly about the children of Fatima suddenly changed their minds. However, as always there are some who want to deny what they cannot understand and point to other phenomenas as e.g. mass-hallucinations or Saharan dust. How to announce the exact time and place of Saharan dust or a mass-hallucination beforehand is beyond me. It rather shows to me, even if God shows signs or stands right next to us, not everyone believes!

The sign in Fatima was not the first – God has always given many signs and miracles. For example, leading the people of Israel out of Egypt, splitting the sea, burning thorn bushes, etc. Many of these miracles are described in the Bible in the Old Testament.

Around the year 0, the prophecies in the Old Testament came true. God himself was born in physical form as Jesus. According to the reports of his disciples, Jesus performed countless miracles during his lifetime. He brought the dead to life, healed the sick, went over water, died himself and rose himself again. His disciples experienced all of this, saw that Jesus himself overcame death and therefore fearlessly gave their lives for him. They saw with their own eyes that death is only transient – and the eternal spiritual life after that is that what we humans should strive for.
I am convinced that if the apostles had not seen this for themselves, they would not have given their lives so readily. Most of them died as martyrs. They were killed because they held on to Jesus and their faith until they died, sometimes under severe torture. Now, one or the other will think: “The disciples might have seen this, but I was not there. I haven’t seen this up close. It’s hard for me to believe it all – especially since it was over 2000 years ago.”

God was here on earth in the form of Jesus. He has shown himself to thousands of people in his physical form, even though he consists of spiritual nature. He performed incredible miracles and yet there were some at that time who still didn’t believe in him. Actually, they even cruelly killed him, even though he didn’t harm anyone and did only good! This shows us that unfortunately God is not welcome by everyone. Even if he does so much for us and shows himself with clear miracles. Some just don’t want to believe. If he were physically on earth again now, who knows what would happen. One scenario coming to my mind, is secret services probably wanting to kidnap him. Test him thoroughly and, if possible, misuse him for gaining more power.

God does certainly not have to stand for that! He was physically here on earth already. He has worked countless miracles in this world and he works them again and again when asked to do so. His signs and wonders are sufficient for us to believe in him. Many do it too, and those who don’t? God loves everyone – but does not impose itself on us.

He also does not want to force us to believe in him and he especially appreciates those who do not see him physically and still believe. This we learn from the story of Thomas which happened after Jesus had risen from his painful dead on the cross:

“Now Thomas (also known as Didymus), one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”
A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” Thomas said to him, “My Lord and my God!” Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” (John 20:24-29)

Let us remember: God is spirit. So this means he is everywhere. He is always with us, he is buried deep in our hearts. If we do something wrong, violate the commandments – then our wounded soul, our guilty conscience moves. Even if we do not know the commandments exactly, since it is in every person’s soul. When we do something right or admit our mistakes, our soul rejoices and becomes very easy. God is there – he shows himself to us personally, we just have to allow it and feel it. Since God is supernatural, we have to do it in a different way than we are used to in our material world and we will be rewarded.

Personally, I pray to God every evening. I thank him for the day and wish for blessings for the next day to come. I feel he listens to my concerns and comforts me spiritually. He gives me hope. I also turn to him in times of despair or when I feel my thoughts go in a wrong direction. How do you feel and experience God?

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